Dilemma

I sometimes wonder, What is it I want to live with-
You, or the thought of you

I sometimes wonder what I want to do away with-
You, or the thought of you

I sometimes wonder what should I choose for myself
You or the thought of you

I sometimes wonder who understands me better-
You or the thought of you

I sometimes wonder who is real-
You or the thought of you

I sometimes wonder why can't they be one-
You and the thought of you.